Paula


    Location:
    St. Laurent
    Name: emeralds69
    Did You Have Cancer?: Yes
    Diagnosis Breast Cancer
    Protocol and Treatment I had a lumpectomy and some of my lymph nodes taken out. I had bleeding from the scar in the breast 2 weeks after surgery. Had 16 weeks of chemo and then five and half weeks of radiation. I am now on Tamoxifen.
    Hospital Jewish General Hospital
    Location: Montreal
    Personal Quote: Enjoy every birthday and don't take anything for granted.
    Relationship: Committed Relationship
    Children Status: Heck No
    Here For: Friends, Networking, Support, Laugh
    High School Laval Catholic High
    College: Vanier College
    Religion: Catholic
    Favorite Music: Celine Dion, Melissa Etheridge, Bon Jovi,Jeff Healey, Elton John and many others.
    Favorite Movies: Too numerous to mention but like comedies, drama, romantic comedies, action.
    Favorite Books: Biographies and fiction.
    Favorite TV Show's: E.R, Ugly Betty, Grey's anatomy, prison break, lipstick jungle, Samantha who, ghost whisperer, deal or no deal.
    Camps: Young adult cancer Canada
    Activities: Read, write, listen to music, watch tv, surf the net, watch movies, travel, photography.
    Interests: Same as above.

    Where do I go from here?

    Sunday, December 14, 2008, 12:59 AM [General]

    Its been more than a year since I finished my treatments for breast cancer. I am on Tamoxifen though. I have been trying out different things that I never thought I would be interested in before  and I am learning about some news things I like. I used to be a freelance writer and I would love to write a story on my battle with cancer or an article but not sure where to begin. I know that the yonger generation ages 18-40 seems to be the forgotten generation when it comes to cancer treatments as dr's can't answer anything about our concerns or worries.

     

    I have someone special in my life that I got to know a year ago and we got to meet in person in Aug. It went well. I met him through a dating website for people that have had cancer. Things are going well with us and I am just wondering where do I go from here? You see the thing that complicates matters is that he lives in The States and I live in Canada. We love each other and we are hoping to eventually get married. I am just a bit nervous about all the paperwork and all involved that comes with being able to go there. I have lived my whole life in Canada, I have never lived in the states. Its a big step for me and I wondered how I go for it without being so nervous about it. I know that fighting cancer does take alot of courage so this shouldn't worry or scare me but its something new for me and I am not sure how to continue to take these big leaps and bounds with this relationship. I would really appreciate it if anyone has any advice they can give me about this. Thanks so much, emeralds69

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    Still trying to figure out the new normal

    Saturday, January 26, 2008, 12:34 AM [General]

    I had a scare where I thought I had cancer again but thankfully my biopsy showed it was benign, which was a big relief. I got a clean bill of health just before christmas and that was the best gift that I could have asked for. Now I am trying to figure out how to get back into the swing of things. My life has changed tremendously in the past 18 months or so. I wondered if the fear of the cancer coming back ever goes away? I also wonder how to figure out what the new normal so to speak is for me. I would love to write about my experience with cancer but there are so detalis that I don't really remember as I didn't keep a journal. I don't know where to begin. Any thoughts or input on that? I would love to hear your thoughts.
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    Hey Paula, thanks for the comment onto my update. To answer your question as far as if the thought of the cancer stays with me forever, yes it does. It especially entered my mind again once I had found more swollen lymphnodes. I made a huge mistake however, when I first discovered the lump, I tried to put it out of my mind. It wasn't until about a year afterwards that I actually had it checked out. I keep saying that I held out due to financial difficulties and the fact that I had no medical coverage, but that really wasn't it. I have a 15th month old son and I think the fear that I may wind up losing him is what really made me put it off. The way I looked at it (subconsciously) is that if I didn't acknowledge the fact that my cancer may be back, it could never happen. Due to that subconscious fear, I'm forced to deal with more consequences within the chemotherapy treatment. Thank you for your support though, it's through this website for the most part that I have found my outside support (people not directly involved with me & the disease). Thanks again

    Jake

    Jake
    January 28, 2008
    03:36 AM CST

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